This time last year what was I doing?
I was flipping out over an essay on John Rawls and his...something I can't remember but it was supposed to be a great tool for making decisions. The veil of unconsciousness (?): basically an alternate world where we cannot know how large our own noses are and therefore we would not pick a law or rule that would favor those with large noses because what if we didn't have large noses ourselves? That wouldn't be fair.
I would read through that essay but I'm petrified of confronting it. It's much easier to read through old blog posts. But easy isn't really the word for it. It's almost masochistic.
This time last year I think I was sitting in the HMC library telling myself that I would never go to graduate school and that I had no discipline for academia.
I was also anxiously waiting to go to Ellen's birthday party to meet everyone else. I got a taxi there with Olivia and we were super early. Way early. And I wore a jacket I wasn't comfortable in. It was an all around uncomfortable event that probably wouldn't have been if I wasn't already desperately behind in my work.
Ellen, bless her heart, invited me to her birthday party again this year. It was a little cruel but really the nicest gesture. It might have brought me as much pleasure as the first time she invited me but in a different way. Then I was elated that someone was reaching out to me for sheer kindness. That my social life was about to get enriched. Now it's a flood of sad warmth. A fond memory of awkwardly drinking a beer in a jacket I didn't feel confident in and someone striking up a conversation with an American pop culture reference that I understood. Bless James Kanimba's heart, too. I had finally started to feel comfortable when it was about time for me and Olivia to leave; she had work, too. Plus I'd promised that if she paid for the cab there I'd pay for the cab back.
Well all week I've been in this mind set. I feel a little distant from the University of Indianapolis sometimes. From the student body. From the classes and residence halls. But I think I've started to find my place here again.
And I'm still a terrible academic. Here I've spent twenty minutes writing in a blog I haven't touched since July 28th, 2009 and I've got an essay due in three hours and an honors project that needs much attention. It's good and well and coming together and it's not as terrible as I had anticipated but it requires time, which I'm good at whittling away with little conversations and cups of coffee and reading through old notebooks about Western Europe.
I don't even have all my books for class yet and it's been a week.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Friday, July 31, 2009
Also Late, but From O'Hare
July 28, 2009.
It’s 3:45 pm…Chicago time! HaHa! I’m at O’Hare. Do you remember me telling you how much I hate O’Hare? Well I still hate it. Concourse G but Gates every other letter. Why, O’Hare? Why?
I’m sitting at the Chili’s in the airport and there’s a huge table right next to me and I just heard the woman tell the waitress “Oh! We’ve been out of the country for two weeks and it’s like, ‘Oh! A drink with ice!’” I just laughed out loud. You know the kind where it’s just basically a sharp breath forced through the nose and someone might mistake it for a bit of a cough or sneeze.
I ordered a coke. I couldn’t wait till Steak n’ Shake tonight. It’d keep me up all night and my jet lag would be unbearable. And I got a basket of nachos with ranch and salsa. And I’ll pay with dollars. Excuse me, Dollar$. But these chips are way too salty. And there are way too many.
So 3 hours and 15 minutes.
But! I will say this about security coming INto O’Here as opposed to going OUTof O’Hare. The guy standing behind the carry on scanner belt thing talked guitars with me. He plays the bass too. Reminds you that sometime people don’t lose their souls when they get a job.
I just thought about how nice the waitress was to me and the huge table who’s back in the country after two weeks and oh yeeeaaaah…Tips! It reminds me of something Lydia used to say: “I love being served.” To which I replied, “Unless it’s in a dance off, in which case, I like to do the serving.”
Oh yeah. Tax. Forgot about that too.
So I pulled out the coin purse that Sheena gave me over a year ago. It’s held my American monies for 7 months. It really does smell a certain way. It smelled very strongly of long, green, skinny paper. With little 1's written in the corners. One dollar bills. And a fist full of coins that will probably piss the waitress off. 3 dollars worth of quarters, nickels, dimes, and pennies in the form of 26 coins. Quarters instead of 20 cent pieces. No funky two pence pieces. There are 50 cent pieces around but not like the 50p or 50 centime piece.
And the silly weirdness of it all hits me. I poured all the American money I have on me onto the table and counted it out one coin at a time. With a weird and satisfied grin on my face. I am weird and satisfied.
And the waitress picked up the 26 coins and 6 one dollar bills and calls back, “Sending me to Las Vegas?!” For a second I had no clue what she was talking about and then I heard all those coins clink into her cash belt.
Haha. I told you. American waiters Hate that stuff. I can’t hide how much that pleased me.
It’s 3:45 pm…Chicago time! HaHa! I’m at O’Hare. Do you remember me telling you how much I hate O’Hare? Well I still hate it. Concourse G but Gates every other letter. Why, O’Hare? Why?
I’m sitting at the Chili’s in the airport and there’s a huge table right next to me and I just heard the woman tell the waitress “Oh! We’ve been out of the country for two weeks and it’s like, ‘Oh! A drink with ice!’” I just laughed out loud. You know the kind where it’s just basically a sharp breath forced through the nose and someone might mistake it for a bit of a cough or sneeze.
I ordered a coke. I couldn’t wait till Steak n’ Shake tonight. It’d keep me up all night and my jet lag would be unbearable. And I got a basket of nachos with ranch and salsa. And I’ll pay with dollars. Excuse me, Dollar$. But these chips are way too salty. And there are way too many.
So 3 hours and 15 minutes.
But! I will say this about security coming INto O’Here as opposed to going OUTof O’Hare. The guy standing behind the carry on scanner belt thing talked guitars with me. He plays the bass too. Reminds you that sometime people don’t lose their souls when they get a job.
I just thought about how nice the waitress was to me and the huge table who’s back in the country after two weeks and oh yeeeaaaah…Tips! It reminds me of something Lydia used to say: “I love being served.” To which I replied, “Unless it’s in a dance off, in which case, I like to do the serving.”
Oh yeah. Tax. Forgot about that too.
So I pulled out the coin purse that Sheena gave me over a year ago. It’s held my American monies for 7 months. It really does smell a certain way. It smelled very strongly of long, green, skinny paper. With little 1's written in the corners. One dollar bills. And a fist full of coins that will probably piss the waitress off. 3 dollars worth of quarters, nickels, dimes, and pennies in the form of 26 coins. Quarters instead of 20 cent pieces. No funky two pence pieces. There are 50 cent pieces around but not like the 50p or 50 centime piece.
And the silly weirdness of it all hits me. I poured all the American money I have on me onto the table and counted it out one coin at a time. With a weird and satisfied grin on my face. I am weird and satisfied.
And the waitress picked up the 26 coins and 6 one dollar bills and calls back, “Sending me to Las Vegas?!” For a second I had no clue what she was talking about and then I heard all those coins clink into her cash belt.
Haha. I told you. American waiters Hate that stuff. I can’t hide how much that pleased me.
A Bit Late Posting but Here Is The Morning I Left London
July 28, 2009
10 hours. It’s 3:15 pm London time.
I had a thought that nothing would be weird at all. That it’s perfectly natural to be gone for 7 months. Like it happens all the time to everyone and lives don’t change. Things are the same. The people are the same. The time difference is irrelevant. There’s no new music, just music you started listening to because a friend said, “Hey, have you ever heard of Paolo Nutini? He’s really good. Listen, I love this line… ‘You said you’d marry me if I was 23 but I’m one that you can’t see if I’m only 18.’ I don’t know how he can have a voice like that, all rough and almost reggae is but with a Scottish accent.”
I woke up early this morning, about 7:15 am. I had plenty of time to organize my things and wash my hair. I didn’t feel anything while having breakfast this morning. Riding the tube out to Heathrow Terminal 5 was just like any other tube ride in London. I listened to my ipod. I had my luggage. I was traveling. There was no trouble finding where I needed to be. I didn’t wander around lost and pressed for time. I had plenty of time. I found my gate with absolutely no trouble. Everyone was pleasant and helpful. I had a big bagel with smoked salmon and capers and an iced mocha. I mean, there’s nothing strange about being in the airport. The flight is uneventful. I’ve been watching episodes of Peep Show, which is a British comedy about two flat mates. It’s kind of an alternative and very modern version of the Odd Couple. And you can hear their thoughts.
They served us Chicken Tuscana and coffee and what not.
It’s um. It’s a little like I’ve not been traveling for 7 months. I don’t know if that’s true, though. I mean, I might have already had my moment of painful realization when I was in Oxford yesterday hanging out with James Kanimba.
We traded music for about 4 hours then went to Hassan’s Van for chips and chicken curry. Then we watched some of his John Mayer DVD and I cried a bit of that terribly sad and somewhat panicked kind of crying all over James’ shoulder.
And that was pretty much that. So we’ll see.
10 hours. It’s 3:15 pm London time.
I had a thought that nothing would be weird at all. That it’s perfectly natural to be gone for 7 months. Like it happens all the time to everyone and lives don’t change. Things are the same. The people are the same. The time difference is irrelevant. There’s no new music, just music you started listening to because a friend said, “Hey, have you ever heard of Paolo Nutini? He’s really good. Listen, I love this line… ‘You said you’d marry me if I was 23 but I’m one that you can’t see if I’m only 18.’ I don’t know how he can have a voice like that, all rough and almost reggae is but with a Scottish accent.”
I woke up early this morning, about 7:15 am. I had plenty of time to organize my things and wash my hair. I didn’t feel anything while having breakfast this morning. Riding the tube out to Heathrow Terminal 5 was just like any other tube ride in London. I listened to my ipod. I had my luggage. I was traveling. There was no trouble finding where I needed to be. I didn’t wander around lost and pressed for time. I had plenty of time. I found my gate with absolutely no trouble. Everyone was pleasant and helpful. I had a big bagel with smoked salmon and capers and an iced mocha. I mean, there’s nothing strange about being in the airport. The flight is uneventful. I’ve been watching episodes of Peep Show, which is a British comedy about two flat mates. It’s kind of an alternative and very modern version of the Odd Couple. And you can hear their thoughts.
They served us Chicken Tuscana and coffee and what not.
It’s um. It’s a little like I’ve not been traveling for 7 months. I don’t know if that’s true, though. I mean, I might have already had my moment of painful realization when I was in Oxford yesterday hanging out with James Kanimba.
We traded music for about 4 hours then went to Hassan’s Van for chips and chicken curry. Then we watched some of his John Mayer DVD and I cried a bit of that terribly sad and somewhat panicked kind of crying all over James’ shoulder.
And that was pretty much that. So we’ll see.
Monday, July 27, 2009
The British Museum Is Pretty Righteous
I'm on the Oxford Tube to Oxford! Ahh, this reminds me of the day I arrived oh so long ago. I only had about 25% battery life. I've got 90% right now, so I'm under no pressure.
I could live in England. I think London is the only big city I've been to that doesn't feel...ugh, you know? It feels like a big city. It is. It's got it's own attitude but the attitude isn't obnoxious. It's expensive though.
I got to see things these past 2 days in London that I didn't the last couple times I was here. My friend Alex from Manchester came down to visit me and we went out to Hammersmith where my hostel is and we had a few pints and some dinner. I'd never been to Hammersmith before. That's in West London. So yesterday morning we met up at Trafalgar Square. My 3rd time being there but I really enjoy it. The lions. The 4th Plinth. Apparently they change what's on the 4th Plinth every 6 months or year or so. These 6 months they've been doing live performance theatre. When I got there there was a guy with a big sign that said "GIVE ME A JOB" and hanging from the plinth was a huge sheet that was his resume. It was pretty clever.
We then wandered our way to the British Museum which was cool. Really Really cool. I mean the Rosetta stone. Mummies left and right. Rooms full of mummified people and cats and birds and fish? Yeah, fish too. Jewelery from Tibet. Hats from Cameroon.
We saw an Easter Island statue man!
Cuneiform, Hieroglyphics, Traditional Chinese, Ancient Greek. I remember doing a project in 6th grade when we were studying Mesopotamia and I took clay and my dad and I spread it out on wax paper to make it look like a stone slab and we looked up Cuneiform online and picked some words and he gave me a flat head screwdriver and I pressed into this clay some real Cuneiform words, as well as a bunch of random marks.
That was 10 years ago and I still remember all these little details about it.
So it was pretty cool.
Alex even made me a mix CD cuz I'd told him how all my friend made them for me before I left. There are just some nice people out there. And I've met a lot of 'em.
PS. 1 day 9 hours.
I could live in England. I think London is the only big city I've been to that doesn't feel...ugh, you know? It feels like a big city. It is. It's got it's own attitude but the attitude isn't obnoxious. It's expensive though.
I got to see things these past 2 days in London that I didn't the last couple times I was here. My friend Alex from Manchester came down to visit me and we went out to Hammersmith where my hostel is and we had a few pints and some dinner. I'd never been to Hammersmith before. That's in West London. So yesterday morning we met up at Trafalgar Square. My 3rd time being there but I really enjoy it. The lions. The 4th Plinth. Apparently they change what's on the 4th Plinth every 6 months or year or so. These 6 months they've been doing live performance theatre. When I got there there was a guy with a big sign that said "GIVE ME A JOB" and hanging from the plinth was a huge sheet that was his resume. It was pretty clever.
We then wandered our way to the British Museum which was cool. Really Really cool. I mean the Rosetta stone. Mummies left and right. Rooms full of mummified people and cats and birds and fish? Yeah, fish too. Jewelery from Tibet. Hats from Cameroon.
We saw an Easter Island statue man!
Cuneiform, Hieroglyphics, Traditional Chinese, Ancient Greek. I remember doing a project in 6th grade when we were studying Mesopotamia and I took clay and my dad and I spread it out on wax paper to make it look like a stone slab and we looked up Cuneiform online and picked some words and he gave me a flat head screwdriver and I pressed into this clay some real Cuneiform words, as well as a bunch of random marks.
That was 10 years ago and I still remember all these little details about it.
So it was pretty cool.
Alex even made me a mix CD cuz I'd told him how all my friend made them for me before I left. There are just some nice people out there. And I've met a lot of 'em.
PS. 1 day 9 hours.
Listen To Your Elders
Ok, things are getting serious. I have 1 day 14 hours.
It's almost 11 a.m. in London and it's raining. I couldn't imagine a better Monday. Honestly. I've been aching for some cool weather and the rain. I was talking to my friend James Kanimba the other day before I got to England and he said, "Maybe if you're lucky it'll rain." But I am lucky. and it is raining. It's 59 degrees and I'm wearing jeans. I'm wearing a sweater. I'm wearing my scarf. These clothes feel good.
I have a couple little stories I'd love to send your way. Here's one of the more recent ones.
I was in Paris right before getting on the train for London on Saturday and I sat at the little restaurant there at the Gare du Nord station and a little old couple came and asked if they could sit with me because there were no other free tables. I of course was delighted for them to join me and I asked if they were on holiday. The gentleman told me that "When you're our age, you don't need to take a holiday. It's all holiday, just in a different place." Here are some things I fould out about Harold and Christine. Harold and Christine Pooley just celebrated their Diamond Anniversary. (That's 60 years if you're not familiar with the scale). Harold and Christine have travled all over the world together. He's crazy about steam trains and they have taken steam trains all over the UK, the US, Eastern Europe, Russian, and they've traveled all over Asia and Europe together. Harold is 88. Christine is 83. Harold flew planes during World War II and did training in Canada. He was warned not to fly over Niagra Falls because the US wasn't involved at the time.
Harold and Chrstine almost crossed pathes twice before finally finding eachother. Harold was 8 and living in South London and Christine was 3 and living in North London and they both got Scarlet Fever at the same time and were taken to the same hospital in Central London. They were both in quarentine and remember the smell. Years later when Christine was finishing school and Harold was in the service, she lived in a house that had a back garden that touched the edge of the base he was training at. Finally Chrstine finished school, the war was almost over, and she got a job at an insurance company. Harold had worked there for a year before he joined the Army and when all was said and done he came back to work at the firm Chrstine was now working for.
The rest is an absolute dream. They received a framed photograph of the Queen in the mail for making it to their diamond wedding anniversary.
I told them about Joshua and me and how we've been married for almost two years. They said, "Only another 58 to go!" I said maybe we'll move to England so we can get a photo of the queen too. I told them Josh and I have big plans for traveling together. They said, "Wonderful! You're young! You have your whole lives ahead of you. You have so much time to be together and enjoy it that these 3 years apart will seem like nothing."
We chatted a bit more about this and that. About the statue of Crazy Horse, about Old Faithful, about the steam engine train in Colorado. They said, "Oh, we hope we haven't bored you here, talking so much." I assured them, no it was more than wonderful to have chatted with them. We began to finish our drinks and pay the waitress and Christine touched me on the arm and said, "Sarah, we hope you and your husband are as happy as we've been lucky enough to be for the past 60 years, traveling together and all."
I told her this was one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to us.
They have successfully lived our dream. They have lived the kind of life Joshua and I talk about every time we speak to eachother. All the places we want to go. All the funny things we can't wait to do together. We always talk about what we're going to be like when we're 60 and 70 and 80 and we always say we'll still be going places and discovering new things and meeting new people and listening to new music and still living. Together. It's not an impossible thing. Harold and Chrstine are doing it right now. I was so moved by them and their encouragment. By their delight in eachother and their stories and their attitudes and their blessing for Joshua and me. Everyone has warm wishes for us. They all mean so much. Harold and Christine had the kind of warm wishes that are specific to a couple who has just celebrated their diamond anniversary.
There was so much beauty in this encounter that it made me let go of an ugly encounter I'd had about a week prior.
To make a long story short, a few of us had decided to go to our favorite "Irish" pub in Aix for a drink and we sat next to these two guys, one from England named Jason who was in his 30's or 40's, married, and a helicoptor scientist. The other guy's name was Stan. Also in his 30's or so and from Australia. Stan was loud, rude, obnoxious, drunk, and obscene. Some inappropriate conversation was brought up by Stan and I said, "Excuse me, I am married and rather uncomfortable with this conversation. I think we should change the subject."
Stan then wanted to get into a political debate about Iraq but not until asking me, "Will it last? Tell me, is it going to last?" in reference to our marriage. I could barely get two words out about our relationship before he moved on to the subject of Iraq. "They're dying! They're dying over there!" I looked him straight in the face and said "You're telling ME they're dying? You are. Telling. Me?" I was so offended and angered by his audacity that I said, "I'm leaving. No, I'm leaving," stood up in tears, and left. I was angry for days.
Joshua said I'd done the right thing, to just get up and leave because people like that cannot even be reckoned with. There's no point in trying to talk to people like that. And he's right. There are people like Harold and Christine in the world.
Before we left the station, Christine told Harold to push up his glasses, they were slipping down his nose. He leand in and said, "Huh?" She smiled and pushed them up gently for him. He grinned a little sheepishly.
I can't wait to push up Joshua's glasses for him when he can't hear me tell him they're slipping.
It's almost 11 a.m. in London and it's raining. I couldn't imagine a better Monday. Honestly. I've been aching for some cool weather and the rain. I was talking to my friend James Kanimba the other day before I got to England and he said, "Maybe if you're lucky it'll rain." But I am lucky. and it is raining. It's 59 degrees and I'm wearing jeans. I'm wearing a sweater. I'm wearing my scarf. These clothes feel good.
I have a couple little stories I'd love to send your way. Here's one of the more recent ones.
I was in Paris right before getting on the train for London on Saturday and I sat at the little restaurant there at the Gare du Nord station and a little old couple came and asked if they could sit with me because there were no other free tables. I of course was delighted for them to join me and I asked if they were on holiday. The gentleman told me that "When you're our age, you don't need to take a holiday. It's all holiday, just in a different place." Here are some things I fould out about Harold and Christine. Harold and Christine Pooley just celebrated their Diamond Anniversary. (That's 60 years if you're not familiar with the scale). Harold and Christine have travled all over the world together. He's crazy about steam trains and they have taken steam trains all over the UK, the US, Eastern Europe, Russian, and they've traveled all over Asia and Europe together. Harold is 88. Christine is 83. Harold flew planes during World War II and did training in Canada. He was warned not to fly over Niagra Falls because the US wasn't involved at the time.
Harold and Chrstine almost crossed pathes twice before finally finding eachother. Harold was 8 and living in South London and Christine was 3 and living in North London and they both got Scarlet Fever at the same time and were taken to the same hospital in Central London. They were both in quarentine and remember the smell. Years later when Christine was finishing school and Harold was in the service, she lived in a house that had a back garden that touched the edge of the base he was training at. Finally Chrstine finished school, the war was almost over, and she got a job at an insurance company. Harold had worked there for a year before he joined the Army and when all was said and done he came back to work at the firm Chrstine was now working for.
The rest is an absolute dream. They received a framed photograph of the Queen in the mail for making it to their diamond wedding anniversary.
I told them about Joshua and me and how we've been married for almost two years. They said, "Only another 58 to go!" I said maybe we'll move to England so we can get a photo of the queen too. I told them Josh and I have big plans for traveling together. They said, "Wonderful! You're young! You have your whole lives ahead of you. You have so much time to be together and enjoy it that these 3 years apart will seem like nothing."
We chatted a bit more about this and that. About the statue of Crazy Horse, about Old Faithful, about the steam engine train in Colorado. They said, "Oh, we hope we haven't bored you here, talking so much." I assured them, no it was more than wonderful to have chatted with them. We began to finish our drinks and pay the waitress and Christine touched me on the arm and said, "Sarah, we hope you and your husband are as happy as we've been lucky enough to be for the past 60 years, traveling together and all."
I told her this was one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to us.
They have successfully lived our dream. They have lived the kind of life Joshua and I talk about every time we speak to eachother. All the places we want to go. All the funny things we can't wait to do together. We always talk about what we're going to be like when we're 60 and 70 and 80 and we always say we'll still be going places and discovering new things and meeting new people and listening to new music and still living. Together. It's not an impossible thing. Harold and Chrstine are doing it right now. I was so moved by them and their encouragment. By their delight in eachother and their stories and their attitudes and their blessing for Joshua and me. Everyone has warm wishes for us. They all mean so much. Harold and Christine had the kind of warm wishes that are specific to a couple who has just celebrated their diamond anniversary.
There was so much beauty in this encounter that it made me let go of an ugly encounter I'd had about a week prior.
To make a long story short, a few of us had decided to go to our favorite "Irish" pub in Aix for a drink and we sat next to these two guys, one from England named Jason who was in his 30's or 40's, married, and a helicoptor scientist. The other guy's name was Stan. Also in his 30's or so and from Australia. Stan was loud, rude, obnoxious, drunk, and obscene. Some inappropriate conversation was brought up by Stan and I said, "Excuse me, I am married and rather uncomfortable with this conversation. I think we should change the subject."
Stan then wanted to get into a political debate about Iraq but not until asking me, "Will it last? Tell me, is it going to last?" in reference to our marriage. I could barely get two words out about our relationship before he moved on to the subject of Iraq. "They're dying! They're dying over there!" I looked him straight in the face and said "You're telling ME they're dying? You are. Telling. Me?" I was so offended and angered by his audacity that I said, "I'm leaving. No, I'm leaving," stood up in tears, and left. I was angry for days.
Joshua said I'd done the right thing, to just get up and leave because people like that cannot even be reckoned with. There's no point in trying to talk to people like that. And he's right. There are people like Harold and Christine in the world.
Before we left the station, Christine told Harold to push up his glasses, they were slipping down his nose. He leand in and said, "Huh?" She smiled and pushed them up gently for him. He grinned a little sheepishly.
I can't wait to push up Joshua's glasses for him when he can't hear me tell him they're slipping.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Good Bye Aix
July 25th 2009. 10:50 a.m. French time. Provence time. Aix TGV time. The past few days there has been one French word that I can’t stop saying. It’s the only word that comes to mind when I think of anything. When I think of this. Incroyable. C’est incroyable. Maybe there’s another word. Bizarre. C’est bizarre. It’s not just because my vocabulary is severely limited, worse than a 4 year old, but it’s because this really is incredible.
I was talking to my mother on Skype the other day and I was telling her about all the fun cool things I did that day and the day before and she said, “Well it sounds like you’re having a good time!” Yes, despite what I’ve been writing in my blog, I’ve been having an incredible time.
I’m on the train to Paris. I have to change stations in Paris, which I’m a little bit dreading, and then I take the train to London. How bizarre is that. Pretty delightfully bizarre.
This morning was sad. Not only did Vero have to drop me off at the station, she also has to drop Millie, the cat, off at the airport. Millie is going to The States to stay with Bruno’s parents while they go on vacation. Millie is terrified of her little travel box and cars and planes. She’s made this journey before and was meowing continuously. Poor cat. She even was sticking her little paws through the door to try and touch you.
I have a beautiful idea of family. Giving someone a meal at the table with people you may have blood relations to or people who you let come to your home for 6 weeks. Helping someone mix the salad or stir the vegetables. Taking someone to the train station so that they don’t have to go alone. Sharing a cup of coffee. I was absolutely pampered at 14/14b Rue du Puits Neuf. I’ve been absolutely taken care of in Europe.
My family has always tried to feed everyone who walks through the front door, especially those who come through the back door. A little something to eat goes a long way. It can calm you down, get you ready, ease a headache, and as cheesy as it sounds, comfort your spirit. It’s just a bit of kindness that is unparalleled.
Today Vero walked to the bakery to buy some bread to make me a ham and cheese sandwich but she also bought a sweet bread that’s crunchy, flakey, and shaped like a heart. I was touched. She also gave me an orange soda.
I have 3 days 14 hours 41 minutes until this journey is completed. Three and a half days. What is this life? I couldn’t even tell you. I went to bed late and woke up early. I think I slept for 4 hours last night. Maybe a bit longer.
My emotions are absolutely volatile right now and have been for a week or longer. Probably will be for another week or more.
I was talking to my mother on Skype the other day and I was telling her about all the fun cool things I did that day and the day before and she said, “Well it sounds like you’re having a good time!” Yes, despite what I’ve been writing in my blog, I’ve been having an incredible time.
I’m on the train to Paris. I have to change stations in Paris, which I’m a little bit dreading, and then I take the train to London. How bizarre is that. Pretty delightfully bizarre.
This morning was sad. Not only did Vero have to drop me off at the station, she also has to drop Millie, the cat, off at the airport. Millie is going to The States to stay with Bruno’s parents while they go on vacation. Millie is terrified of her little travel box and cars and planes. She’s made this journey before and was meowing continuously. Poor cat. She even was sticking her little paws through the door to try and touch you.
I have a beautiful idea of family. Giving someone a meal at the table with people you may have blood relations to or people who you let come to your home for 6 weeks. Helping someone mix the salad or stir the vegetables. Taking someone to the train station so that they don’t have to go alone. Sharing a cup of coffee. I was absolutely pampered at 14/14b Rue du Puits Neuf. I’ve been absolutely taken care of in Europe.
My family has always tried to feed everyone who walks through the front door, especially those who come through the back door. A little something to eat goes a long way. It can calm you down, get you ready, ease a headache, and as cheesy as it sounds, comfort your spirit. It’s just a bit of kindness that is unparalleled.
Today Vero walked to the bakery to buy some bread to make me a ham and cheese sandwich but she also bought a sweet bread that’s crunchy, flakey, and shaped like a heart. I was touched. She also gave me an orange soda.
I have 3 days 14 hours 41 minutes until this journey is completed. Three and a half days. What is this life? I couldn’t even tell you. I went to bed late and woke up early. I think I slept for 4 hours last night. Maybe a bit longer.
My emotions are absolutely volatile right now and have been for a week or longer. Probably will be for another week or more.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
5 Days 22 Hours
But honestly.
I'm freaking out. I'm having severe mood swings. I'm not Hulking out or anything. I just get overwhelmingly happy and after half a day I'm borderline depressed. I go from being comfortable with the people around me to being unbearably awkward. So awkward I have to just leave.
I've spent most of these last posts not describing Aix or little stories about the people here or the things that happen. I've mostly been writing about the internal things. And most of the posts say basically the same thing "I don't know how to handle this."
I mean, I'm handling it. I'm loving it. It's hurting. It's good for me. There's something to be said for feeling this kind of ache, I just don't know what it is yet.
I'm freaking out. I'm having severe mood swings. I'm not Hulking out or anything. I just get overwhelmingly happy and after half a day I'm borderline depressed. I go from being comfortable with the people around me to being unbearably awkward. So awkward I have to just leave.
I've spent most of these last posts not describing Aix or little stories about the people here or the things that happen. I've mostly been writing about the internal things. And most of the posts say basically the same thing "I don't know how to handle this."
I mean, I'm handling it. I'm loving it. It's hurting. It's good for me. There's something to be said for feeling this kind of ache, I just don't know what it is yet.
A Bit of a Cop Out
I have not written in a while but I have written something pretty hefty about Aix and about my stay here. I figure I'll just copy/paste the whole thing right here. It's a paper for one of my classes. Enjoy.
Musings on the Music
You lock the two locks on your front door – one turns twice to the left, the other turns twice to the right. You pass the Fresh Box Wok and you make a right past the BSA Tattoo Parlor and Hotel de Ville extends to your left. In the mornings you have flower markets. In the afternoons, evenings, and nights, you have café tables and chairs and umbrellas and chalkboards. And musicians. A whole assortment of musicians with their specialties and time slots and expectations. Watch them; you’ll see.
But this is a quick walk for the moment. For now it’s 8:23 a.m. and you’ve got class at 8:30. So no musicians are around. Hang a right onto Saporta and you might see the dirty haired past middle-aged man with a beat up guitar leaning against a building with a cigarette in one hand and a can of beer on the window ledge. You think you saw him last night in the same clothes. Across from this scruffy man is Place des Martyrs de la Résistance and it always has coffee tables. It doesn’t have musicians until 1 p.m. or after. You’ll check for musicians on your way back from class.
There’s no reason for you to wear your earphones when you walk through these streets. They provide music for you. Let them.
After class you have a look - well, a listen, rather. There’s a bit of swing jazz coming from up ahead and when you reach Place des Martyrs de la Résistance a fabulous sight meets your eyes: A jazz trio of young men complete with a tall blond bassist in a fedora and two seated Django-esque guitarists, both brunettes. You don’t have anything to do but stop and sit on a step behind them and listen and watch and wish you could be apart of whatever it is they are.
They face the two large cafes there. They swing away on old traditional jazz tunes and nod to those passing by who make eye contact. One of the guitar cases sits before them on the ground and gently asks for bi-colored coins, or even single colored coins. Anything really. You watch the bassist bob his head up and down with the steady walking of his chords. This group is tight. They feel each other. You’ll later find out the bassist’s name is Vincent but for now you watch him carefully put his bass down on the stone slabbed ground and take off his hat. The guitarists adjust and readjust – pluck a string, turn a knob, strum a chord in unison, scoot the chairs closer – and while they tap in a new number, Vincent weaves his way through the café tables, smiling at the girls and older women, making small talk with their men. The waiters say nothing to Vincent about his addressing their customers for coins. You’ll notice these same waiters chasing off certain musicians and leaving others alone. Perhaps you’ve even seen a waiter make pleasantries with a particular musician. It’s not impossible.
Every time you walk past Place des Martyrs de la Résistance, which is at least four times a day, you look for them. You’re pleased when you find an older jazz quartet with drums and even a fiddle, but you’re always looking for the Django Trio. They usually play around 2 p.m. but never on the weekends.
Today you’ve found neither the Django Trio nor The Old Quartet. Today you have an accordion player. He’s older in a stripped shirt with a less than pearly white grin. He feels French. He leans left with the stretching of his accordion and leans right with its three count. It feels traditional to you, even stereotypical. He paces between the two cafés opposite each other, playing for this table, playing for your enjoyment, playing for your two Euro coins, if he’s lucky.
And why this song, you wonder. Why “Hernando’s Hideaway” among the traditional French songs? You know he must be playing what he does for a reason and perhaps that reason is a hybrid of his love this kind of music and the expectations these coin tossers want to hear when they sip a café crème under a large tree in Aix-en-Provence. This is their South of France vacation, after all, and it should feel French.
There is a chained off section of Place des Martyrs where a massive plaque bears the names of known members of The Resistance who died during the war. You can enter this chained off section and a little brother and sister dance to the accordion player while their adults drink their coffee. The little girl raises her arms above her head and she flexes her fingers and waves a stick and gallops in circles. She stops when the music stops. She starts again with the next song.
After sitting at Place des Martyrs several times you begin to feel the time warp. The swing bands seem to gravitate to the place dedicated to The Resistance. Nazis hated American Swing and today those from Provence who resisted the Nazis are perpetually honored with plaques on the wall, a street in commemoration, and swing for their memory.
You find your evenings at Hotel de Ville. Once you saw a piano player there. Just tonight you’ve found a different jazz trio comprised of a bass, electric guitar, and tenor saxophone. You decide after a while that you don’t like them. After a bit more reflection, you decide that there are several reasons why. The first thing that strikes you is their get up. They’re all wearing straw fedora type hats and cheesy button up shirts. They’re wearing a uniform. A uniform doesn’t necessarily bother you, but it does remind you that these guys are putting on a show. When you stop to think about their show, you recognize that you’ve never been that big of a sax fan, let alone a sax solo. And they’ve got CD’s for sale. Again, this isn’t a reason in itself to dislike them, it just rubs you the wrong way. But the biggest and most legitimate reason to dislike them is that they’re on the scruffy solo guitarists turf and playing into his time.
You see Solo standing by the wall with a cigarette in one hand, a beer on the window ledge, and his guitar propped against his leg. He’s staring at them from behind. He’s puffing away. He’s touching his hair. He coughs something up and spits it on the ground. The next moment you look over at him, he’s approached the trio, waiving his cigarette at them, mumbling something inaudible to you at the tables – and perhaps even to The Pretentious Hats because when he shuffles back to his wall, they tune up and play another song that can no doubt be found on their album.
You’ve noticed Solo before this incident, but never really gave him much thought. If you’re honest, you’re made a little uncomfortable by him. He’s not a music student like the Django Trio and you suspect he’s homeless. But he’s really good. And all of a sudden you’re angry for him! He’s a good musician and this is the place that he has chosen and that has accepted him. The waiters at these four cafes know him and his music. He’s not chased away because he mumbles and smells like beer. There seems to be an agreement that The Pretentious Hats haven’t made. See, The Pretentious Hats want to be watched and looked up on MySpace and bought into. They want your full attention and participation. That’s not how it works here. The people come to Hotel de Ville and want to meet up with their friends and chat, not to attend a concert. When Solo plays, he sits on a box under a tree and plucks complicated classical guitar patterns and hits harmonics and smokes. Only two people actively watch him for a few moments, but when he finishes playing the tables around clap enthusiastically.
You never really know until the last possible second if you’ll give your coins to a street musician or not, but when Solo comes by your table with a mumble and a coin container, you drop a few in because you specifically withheld them from The Pretentious Hats.
Musings on the Music
You lock the two locks on your front door – one turns twice to the left, the other turns twice to the right. You pass the Fresh Box Wok and you make a right past the BSA Tattoo Parlor and Hotel de Ville extends to your left. In the mornings you have flower markets. In the afternoons, evenings, and nights, you have café tables and chairs and umbrellas and chalkboards. And musicians. A whole assortment of musicians with their specialties and time slots and expectations. Watch them; you’ll see.
But this is a quick walk for the moment. For now it’s 8:23 a.m. and you’ve got class at 8:30. So no musicians are around. Hang a right onto Saporta and you might see the dirty haired past middle-aged man with a beat up guitar leaning against a building with a cigarette in one hand and a can of beer on the window ledge. You think you saw him last night in the same clothes. Across from this scruffy man is Place des Martyrs de la Résistance and it always has coffee tables. It doesn’t have musicians until 1 p.m. or after. You’ll check for musicians on your way back from class.
There’s no reason for you to wear your earphones when you walk through these streets. They provide music for you. Let them.
After class you have a look - well, a listen, rather. There’s a bit of swing jazz coming from up ahead and when you reach Place des Martyrs de la Résistance a fabulous sight meets your eyes: A jazz trio of young men complete with a tall blond bassist in a fedora and two seated Django-esque guitarists, both brunettes. You don’t have anything to do but stop and sit on a step behind them and listen and watch and wish you could be apart of whatever it is they are.
They face the two large cafes there. They swing away on old traditional jazz tunes and nod to those passing by who make eye contact. One of the guitar cases sits before them on the ground and gently asks for bi-colored coins, or even single colored coins. Anything really. You watch the bassist bob his head up and down with the steady walking of his chords. This group is tight. They feel each other. You’ll later find out the bassist’s name is Vincent but for now you watch him carefully put his bass down on the stone slabbed ground and take off his hat. The guitarists adjust and readjust – pluck a string, turn a knob, strum a chord in unison, scoot the chairs closer – and while they tap in a new number, Vincent weaves his way through the café tables, smiling at the girls and older women, making small talk with their men. The waiters say nothing to Vincent about his addressing their customers for coins. You’ll notice these same waiters chasing off certain musicians and leaving others alone. Perhaps you’ve even seen a waiter make pleasantries with a particular musician. It’s not impossible.
Every time you walk past Place des Martyrs de la Résistance, which is at least four times a day, you look for them. You’re pleased when you find an older jazz quartet with drums and even a fiddle, but you’re always looking for the Django Trio. They usually play around 2 p.m. but never on the weekends.
Today you’ve found neither the Django Trio nor The Old Quartet. Today you have an accordion player. He’s older in a stripped shirt with a less than pearly white grin. He feels French. He leans left with the stretching of his accordion and leans right with its three count. It feels traditional to you, even stereotypical. He paces between the two cafés opposite each other, playing for this table, playing for your enjoyment, playing for your two Euro coins, if he’s lucky.
And why this song, you wonder. Why “Hernando’s Hideaway” among the traditional French songs? You know he must be playing what he does for a reason and perhaps that reason is a hybrid of his love this kind of music and the expectations these coin tossers want to hear when they sip a café crème under a large tree in Aix-en-Provence. This is their South of France vacation, after all, and it should feel French.
There is a chained off section of Place des Martyrs where a massive plaque bears the names of known members of The Resistance who died during the war. You can enter this chained off section and a little brother and sister dance to the accordion player while their adults drink their coffee. The little girl raises her arms above her head and she flexes her fingers and waves a stick and gallops in circles. She stops when the music stops. She starts again with the next song.
After sitting at Place des Martyrs several times you begin to feel the time warp. The swing bands seem to gravitate to the place dedicated to The Resistance. Nazis hated American Swing and today those from Provence who resisted the Nazis are perpetually honored with plaques on the wall, a street in commemoration, and swing for their memory.
You find your evenings at Hotel de Ville. Once you saw a piano player there. Just tonight you’ve found a different jazz trio comprised of a bass, electric guitar, and tenor saxophone. You decide after a while that you don’t like them. After a bit more reflection, you decide that there are several reasons why. The first thing that strikes you is their get up. They’re all wearing straw fedora type hats and cheesy button up shirts. They’re wearing a uniform. A uniform doesn’t necessarily bother you, but it does remind you that these guys are putting on a show. When you stop to think about their show, you recognize that you’ve never been that big of a sax fan, let alone a sax solo. And they’ve got CD’s for sale. Again, this isn’t a reason in itself to dislike them, it just rubs you the wrong way. But the biggest and most legitimate reason to dislike them is that they’re on the scruffy solo guitarists turf and playing into his time.
You see Solo standing by the wall with a cigarette in one hand, a beer on the window ledge, and his guitar propped against his leg. He’s staring at them from behind. He’s puffing away. He’s touching his hair. He coughs something up and spits it on the ground. The next moment you look over at him, he’s approached the trio, waiving his cigarette at them, mumbling something inaudible to you at the tables – and perhaps even to The Pretentious Hats because when he shuffles back to his wall, they tune up and play another song that can no doubt be found on their album.
You’ve noticed Solo before this incident, but never really gave him much thought. If you’re honest, you’re made a little uncomfortable by him. He’s not a music student like the Django Trio and you suspect he’s homeless. But he’s really good. And all of a sudden you’re angry for him! He’s a good musician and this is the place that he has chosen and that has accepted him. The waiters at these four cafes know him and his music. He’s not chased away because he mumbles and smells like beer. There seems to be an agreement that The Pretentious Hats haven’t made. See, The Pretentious Hats want to be watched and looked up on MySpace and bought into. They want your full attention and participation. That’s not how it works here. The people come to Hotel de Ville and want to meet up with their friends and chat, not to attend a concert. When Solo plays, he sits on a box under a tree and plucks complicated classical guitar patterns and hits harmonics and smokes. Only two people actively watch him for a few moments, but when he finishes playing the tables around clap enthusiastically.
You never really know until the last possible second if you’ll give your coins to a street musician or not, but when Solo comes by your table with a mumble and a coin container, you drop a few in because you specifically withheld them from The Pretentious Hats.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Vincent Drank Absenth, I Drank Iced Coffee
I went to Arles yesterday with my class.
It rained for about 15 minutes around 3:30 or so. I miss the rain. It's been sunny and dry for 5 weeks in Aix. It's been hot. It's been windy a day or two. It's quite different from England. Different season, climate, temperament, and life style.
I hope it rains when I'm in London.
I hope the skies drop with the weight of water and press down on our heads so that we have to hunch over and dodge dense clouds. I hope we have to raise our hands and shove the sky up a foot or two. Then I hope the whole sky takes in one monstrous breath that sucks the clouds all the way back to where they started and then I hope it realizes it's over estimated it's ability to handle so much moisture and ruptures.
I hope the sun is in awe of this and steps back for a moment and is silent and feels slightly ashamed while the rain roars in pain and relief.
It rained for about 15 minutes around 3:30 or so. I miss the rain. It's been sunny and dry for 5 weeks in Aix. It's been hot. It's been windy a day or two. It's quite different from England. Different season, climate, temperament, and life style.
I hope it rains when I'm in London.
I hope the skies drop with the weight of water and press down on our heads so that we have to hunch over and dodge dense clouds. I hope we have to raise our hands and shove the sky up a foot or two. Then I hope the whole sky takes in one monstrous breath that sucks the clouds all the way back to where they started and then I hope it realizes it's over estimated it's ability to handle so much moisture and ruptures.
I hope the sun is in awe of this and steps back for a moment and is silent and feels slightly ashamed while the rain roars in pain and relief.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
I Always Fall in Love With an Open Door
Do you know what today is? Today is a day in Aix-en-Provence. It is 81 degrees F. It's partly cloudy. Mostly sunny. It's humid. It's a bit windy. I walk past the tattoo parlor and wave to the guys who work there. I walk past the Noodle Box and wave and the guys who work there. I walk past the Aix-Presso cafe and wave to the guys who work there. I whistle, which isn't something many girls do here. I get approached by people raising awareness for something and I fail at communicating in French.
I start to evaluate what I've done out of convienance and what I've done out of sheer desire and I see the vast divide between the great former and the ever shrinking latter. I sit in class and look at each person and realize that I know no one and their reality does not include much of what I consider reality.
I am haveing physical reactions to the thought of leaving. Heat in my chest and stomach, my very core. The backs of my knees tense. I tip my head way back.
I unlock an ancient door with two locks and say hello to a cat. I walk up 41 spiral steps. I turn on the air conditioner, drop my backpack and throw myself face down on my bed. I look at my knitting. My laundry basket. My polka dot dress hanging from a bar. I sink. I tell myself I'll do this and that. I do something else. I count days till home. Hours till dinner. Minutes till class. I'll go to bed at a decent hour tonight. I won't. I'll get a decent amount of work done today. I won't. I'll reserve my ticket for London. I've got a little more time yet.
I'll wash my feet. I can't.
These days feel like a little much, don't you think? All this lame duck-feeling air and breath. It's just a matter of time and it should hurt.
I start to evaluate what I've done out of convienance and what I've done out of sheer desire and I see the vast divide between the great former and the ever shrinking latter. I sit in class and look at each person and realize that I know no one and their reality does not include much of what I consider reality.
I am haveing physical reactions to the thought of leaving. Heat in my chest and stomach, my very core. The backs of my knees tense. I tip my head way back.
I unlock an ancient door with two locks and say hello to a cat. I walk up 41 spiral steps. I turn on the air conditioner, drop my backpack and throw myself face down on my bed. I look at my knitting. My laundry basket. My polka dot dress hanging from a bar. I sink. I tell myself I'll do this and that. I do something else. I count days till home. Hours till dinner. Minutes till class. I'll go to bed at a decent hour tonight. I won't. I'll get a decent amount of work done today. I won't. I'll reserve my ticket for London. I've got a little more time yet.
I'll wash my feet. I can't.
These days feel like a little much, don't you think? All this lame duck-feeling air and breath. It's just a matter of time and it should hurt.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Paint
Hey, I just realized that my last few posts have been a little bit whiny. What's with that? And! I haven't really talked about any of the cool stuff that's been going on. I briefly mentioned going swing dancing one night, but I didn't tell you how beautiful it was.
Let me try and do a better job of expressing it.
That night of swing dancing was a little bit like an impressionist painting. A lot like an impressionist painting. It was late and dark and there was a huge big band set up on a stage at the edge of Place Hotel de Ville and all the cafes had rearranged their tables to make way for a dance floor. There were lights strung up around the dance space so it was warm. The night was warm. The people were warm. I wore heels and my black swing dress. I didn't know how legit the dancing would be, but after about 20 minutes and 3 dances, I decided I needed to rush home and put on my dance shoes.
The best way for me to show you what that night was like is to take some of Van Gogh's advice. He said one time to his friend and fellow artist, Paul Gauguin, that maybe it'd be a good idea for painters to work together on one painting, each adding what they do best to create the perfect picture. So. That night was a combination of Van Gogh's night and lighting and Renoir's people and location.
That's what swing dancing in Aix was like.
I've also been seeing a lot of the places that inspired Van Gogh. Last weekend our school took a trip to St. Remy. The assaylum where Van Gogh spent the last 2 years of his life is there. This is where he painted Starry Night. Pam, the woman leading the trip told us how to get to the room he stayed in and then how to get to the gardens he painted. All of it has been preserved so it's basically the exact same way it was when he was a patient there. I booked it to his room while everyone else wandered around the gift shop so I could have a moment alone with Vincent's spirit.
He painted the view from his window minus the metal bars.
I saw his wheat fields. His olive groves. His sky and sun and stone wall and sunflowers and mountain and cypress trees and church steeple and his room. It gave me an idea as to how much of his color really existed in the earth for the rest of us, and how much of his color only existed in his mind.
I have always loved Van Gogh and the more I learn about who he was, how he worked, and what his life was like, I appreciate him and his art more and more. I've started reading some of the hundreds of letters he wrote to his brother, Theo, and his passion for everything moves me.
Next Friday my class is taking a trip to Arles where he lived and painted the cafes. I want to spend the week reading his letters so that when I get to Arles I can have a better idea of what he was experiencing while there.
Let me try and do a better job of expressing it.
That night of swing dancing was a little bit like an impressionist painting. A lot like an impressionist painting. It was late and dark and there was a huge big band set up on a stage at the edge of Place Hotel de Ville and all the cafes had rearranged their tables to make way for a dance floor. There were lights strung up around the dance space so it was warm. The night was warm. The people were warm. I wore heels and my black swing dress. I didn't know how legit the dancing would be, but after about 20 minutes and 3 dances, I decided I needed to rush home and put on my dance shoes.
The best way for me to show you what that night was like is to take some of Van Gogh's advice. He said one time to his friend and fellow artist, Paul Gauguin, that maybe it'd be a good idea for painters to work together on one painting, each adding what they do best to create the perfect picture. So. That night was a combination of Van Gogh's night and lighting and Renoir's people and location.
That's what swing dancing in Aix was like.
I've also been seeing a lot of the places that inspired Van Gogh. Last weekend our school took a trip to St. Remy. The assaylum where Van Gogh spent the last 2 years of his life is there. This is where he painted Starry Night. Pam, the woman leading the trip told us how to get to the room he stayed in and then how to get to the gardens he painted. All of it has been preserved so it's basically the exact same way it was when he was a patient there. I booked it to his room while everyone else wandered around the gift shop so I could have a moment alone with Vincent's spirit.
He painted the view from his window minus the metal bars.
I saw his wheat fields. His olive groves. His sky and sun and stone wall and sunflowers and mountain and cypress trees and church steeple and his room. It gave me an idea as to how much of his color really existed in the earth for the rest of us, and how much of his color only existed in his mind.
I have always loved Van Gogh and the more I learn about who he was, how he worked, and what his life was like, I appreciate him and his art more and more. I've started reading some of the hundreds of letters he wrote to his brother, Theo, and his passion for everything moves me.
Next Friday my class is taking a trip to Arles where he lived and painted the cafes. I want to spend the week reading his letters so that when I get to Arles I can have a better idea of what he was experiencing while there.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Happy 233rd
Today I went to the pool to do homework.
I haven't been to the public pool since I was 8 years old.
The high today was 91.
I didn't get any homework done, if you were really wondering but I don't think it was the pool. I think it was just me.
This is my problem:
I think of other things to do.
This has been my problem for quite some time now. It could be anything. Sometimes I clip my toe nails or watch people or send an email or go get a drink of water or who knows.
I didn't go swimming and there's something strange about the public pool.
I went with Lily and Marc.
Today's the 4th of July and it's my favorite holiday. It's not so much the fact that it's all American and I'm all American and America. America.
It's the summer. It's the cook out. It's the watermelon. Iced tea. Red plastic table cloth. Blue napkins. Cans of Coke. Baked beans. Thick slices of tomato and cheese cooked right on the burger. Sea salt and vinegar potato chips. Running in and out of the house. Water balloons and a frisbee. The back yard. Cousins. Brothers. Friends. Yelling. Barefoot. Sparklers. Lawn chairs.
Fireworks.
And this year I get to watch The Baker's Wife and eat a Noodle Box.
I haven't been to the public pool since I was 8 years old.
The high today was 91.
I didn't get any homework done, if you were really wondering but I don't think it was the pool. I think it was just me.
This is my problem:
I think of other things to do.
This has been my problem for quite some time now. It could be anything. Sometimes I clip my toe nails or watch people or send an email or go get a drink of water or who knows.
I didn't go swimming and there's something strange about the public pool.
I went with Lily and Marc.
Today's the 4th of July and it's my favorite holiday. It's not so much the fact that it's all American and I'm all American and America. America.
It's the summer. It's the cook out. It's the watermelon. Iced tea. Red plastic table cloth. Blue napkins. Cans of Coke. Baked beans. Thick slices of tomato and cheese cooked right on the burger. Sea salt and vinegar potato chips. Running in and out of the house. Water balloons and a frisbee. The back yard. Cousins. Brothers. Friends. Yelling. Barefoot. Sparklers. Lawn chairs.
Fireworks.
And this year I get to watch The Baker's Wife and eat a Noodle Box.
Monday, June 29, 2009
I'll Take that as a Compliment
This little memory made me laugh today.
I spent a lot of time at HMC in the 3rd floor kitchen making coffee, eating yogurt, and helping Seb B make pasta dish after pasta dish.
It was probably during 3rd or 4th week and I was wearing a tan turtle neck kind of shirt and my dark maroon, brass buttoned jacket. This jacket has always made me feel cool and kind of funky elegant. It's one of those articles of clothing that always makes you feel like you look better than normal.
So by 3rd or 4th week things were pretty much going and I'd kind of gotten used to things, I at least finally had friends that I felt comfortable around. I was making coffee or something when Seb B came into the kitchen to start making dinner and I started jabbering on about this or that and after I'd quieted down and asked him if he wanted me to grate some cheese, he said, "Yes, grate some cheese, and you're looking very, mmm, mundane today with that jacket."
I think I made some noise like, "huh" or "heh." I might have made a little comment like, "Wow. Mundane."
Seb B has a delightful habit of giving compliments to girls that could be taken slightly offensively like, "You're at every meal and you're always early. You must really like to eat." Which is the first thing he said to me besides, "I think I'm your neighbor." So I thought he was trying to give me one of his Seb-esque compliments, because being able to eat a lot is a good thing to him, but I couldn't figure the compliment in saying that I looked mundane. Did he mean I looked like a normal, down to earth, friendly girl, who's easy to approach and non-pretentious? What I couldn't figure out was that he was also very good with the kinds of compliments every girl likes. For instance, the first formal dinner we had I wore a dress and we walked to dinner together and he commented on how smart I looked. Using the word "smart." And while "smart" isn't a word we use to describe a pretty girl in the States, I knew that's how it was used in England.
So I must not have given the response he expected from a girl who'd just been called mundane, because he said the word again a little questioningly. "Mundane. That's an English word right?" I confirmed and he asked me what it meant, because he knew it was a word in English, but it might not have been the word he really wanted to use.
"It means plain and boring. When something is mundane, it's repetative and there is nothing special about it."
He said, "Well that is not the word I want to use. Mondän is a word we have in German and it means sophistocated, um. A woman who is kind of, chic and feminine. You don't have this word in English?" Nope, he'd just called me boring.
We laughed about it and how confused we both were with each other for about 25 seconds.
That jacket is gone. It was lost on an over night ferry to Santorini Island. Sometimes things happen that way.
Now I cannot hear the word mundane and not think of feeling a bit chic.
I spent a lot of time at HMC in the 3rd floor kitchen making coffee, eating yogurt, and helping Seb B make pasta dish after pasta dish.
It was probably during 3rd or 4th week and I was wearing a tan turtle neck kind of shirt and my dark maroon, brass buttoned jacket. This jacket has always made me feel cool and kind of funky elegant. It's one of those articles of clothing that always makes you feel like you look better than normal.
So by 3rd or 4th week things were pretty much going and I'd kind of gotten used to things, I at least finally had friends that I felt comfortable around. I was making coffee or something when Seb B came into the kitchen to start making dinner and I started jabbering on about this or that and after I'd quieted down and asked him if he wanted me to grate some cheese, he said, "Yes, grate some cheese, and you're looking very, mmm, mundane today with that jacket."
I think I made some noise like, "huh" or "heh." I might have made a little comment like, "Wow. Mundane."
Seb B has a delightful habit of giving compliments to girls that could be taken slightly offensively like, "You're at every meal and you're always early. You must really like to eat." Which is the first thing he said to me besides, "I think I'm your neighbor." So I thought he was trying to give me one of his Seb-esque compliments, because being able to eat a lot is a good thing to him, but I couldn't figure the compliment in saying that I looked mundane. Did he mean I looked like a normal, down to earth, friendly girl, who's easy to approach and non-pretentious? What I couldn't figure out was that he was also very good with the kinds of compliments every girl likes. For instance, the first formal dinner we had I wore a dress and we walked to dinner together and he commented on how smart I looked. Using the word "smart." And while "smart" isn't a word we use to describe a pretty girl in the States, I knew that's how it was used in England.
So I must not have given the response he expected from a girl who'd just been called mundane, because he said the word again a little questioningly. "Mundane. That's an English word right?" I confirmed and he asked me what it meant, because he knew it was a word in English, but it might not have been the word he really wanted to use.
"It means plain and boring. When something is mundane, it's repetative and there is nothing special about it."
He said, "Well that is not the word I want to use. Mondän is a word we have in German and it means sophistocated, um. A woman who is kind of, chic and feminine. You don't have this word in English?" Nope, he'd just called me boring.
We laughed about it and how confused we both were with each other for about 25 seconds.
That jacket is gone. It was lost on an over night ferry to Santorini Island. Sometimes things happen that way.
Now I cannot hear the word mundane and not think of feeling a bit chic.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Hilary Swank is Playing Amelia Earhart.
My room was once a furnace, but now it is a room again.
I generally prefer my living space to be a little warmer than cooler but being on the top floor in Aix in the middle of summer, a little warmer is an understatement. My French parents got a little air conditioner that makes my room sooooo goooood.
So my cellphone. It's dead. It really is. I was talking to Joshua on the phone last night and he said, "Lady, Lady, are you there? You're cutting out pretty bad." And then my phone made some quite strange noises and shut off completely. It rang again and I couldn't find a pen to answer it and then, kaput. Done for.
I'm gonna try and take it to a cellphone store tomorrow and try a new battery. Or just try and put my SIM card in another phone. This is a terrible time for my phone to die because I've only got 30 days left. That's too long to go without a phone, but not long enough to really feel like it's worth my money to get a new phone. Ugh. I hate that cell phone. I think I've decided it's going to end violently.
And I went swing dancing last night. What can I say except that it was good for my spirit? I need to take lessons again. I need to take private lessons on a very regular basis.
Wait. 30 days? 30 days two hours? This...can't be.
I don't know what to do.
I mean, I know what to do. Travel myself back to London. Get on a plane. Get off a plane. Greet friends and family with an immodest show of screams, hugs, tears, the usual. I'll say things like "I can't believe it! You got your hair cut? I've never seen you in a baseball cap before! Am I in Indiana for real? I'm home."
My junk will be put in a car. Someone will take me to a place to sleep. Someone will take me to Steak 'n' Shake. I wanna go to Steak 'n' Shake. We'll laugh so much. I'll be so tired.
I'll be so. Tired.
It'll be so final.
See, I can't help but do this. Think way to far ahead. Too far in advance. It's hard to stay right here, in Aix, on my bed. It's hard to make Aix my home because it feels so temporary. Oxford became my home. It was the beginning. It was the time. I feel bad for Aix because it's so much in the shadow of Oxford. I hear all the students here just die with excitement and wonder over the little things. For a lot of them, this is their first time studying abroad. For one girl this is her first time away from home. She didn't even go to summer camp.
And I can relate to them a bit in the sense that I experienced very similar things when I went to Oxford, but I cannot relate in the sense that I'm experiencing it all with them at this moment. A lot of them are traveling on the weekends to Italy, Barcelona, Geneva, other parts of France. Or they're going to spend a few weeks traveling after term ends. Me? This is the end of the line, not the beginning.
A little secret. When I first got here Vero took me and Lily on a walk around town after dinner. She showed us the school. She showed us some fountains and this and that place. And I said it reminded me a lot of Oxford. First thought. I'd already compared it to Oxford.
Forgive me, Aix. I'm trying.
I generally prefer my living space to be a little warmer than cooler but being on the top floor in Aix in the middle of summer, a little warmer is an understatement. My French parents got a little air conditioner that makes my room sooooo goooood.
So my cellphone. It's dead. It really is. I was talking to Joshua on the phone last night and he said, "Lady, Lady, are you there? You're cutting out pretty bad." And then my phone made some quite strange noises and shut off completely. It rang again and I couldn't find a pen to answer it and then, kaput. Done for.
I'm gonna try and take it to a cellphone store tomorrow and try a new battery. Or just try and put my SIM card in another phone. This is a terrible time for my phone to die because I've only got 30 days left. That's too long to go without a phone, but not long enough to really feel like it's worth my money to get a new phone. Ugh. I hate that cell phone. I think I've decided it's going to end violently.
And I went swing dancing last night. What can I say except that it was good for my spirit? I need to take lessons again. I need to take private lessons on a very regular basis.
Wait. 30 days? 30 days two hours? This...can't be.
I don't know what to do.
I mean, I know what to do. Travel myself back to London. Get on a plane. Get off a plane. Greet friends and family with an immodest show of screams, hugs, tears, the usual. I'll say things like "I can't believe it! You got your hair cut? I've never seen you in a baseball cap before! Am I in Indiana for real? I'm home."
My junk will be put in a car. Someone will take me to a place to sleep. Someone will take me to Steak 'n' Shake. I wanna go to Steak 'n' Shake. We'll laugh so much. I'll be so tired.
I'll be so. Tired.
It'll be so final.
See, I can't help but do this. Think way to far ahead. Too far in advance. It's hard to stay right here, in Aix, on my bed. It's hard to make Aix my home because it feels so temporary. Oxford became my home. It was the beginning. It was the time. I feel bad for Aix because it's so much in the shadow of Oxford. I hear all the students here just die with excitement and wonder over the little things. For a lot of them, this is their first time studying abroad. For one girl this is her first time away from home. She didn't even go to summer camp.
And I can relate to them a bit in the sense that I experienced very similar things when I went to Oxford, but I cannot relate in the sense that I'm experiencing it all with them at this moment. A lot of them are traveling on the weekends to Italy, Barcelona, Geneva, other parts of France. Or they're going to spend a few weeks traveling after term ends. Me? This is the end of the line, not the beginning.
A little secret. When I first got here Vero took me and Lily on a walk around town after dinner. She showed us the school. She showed us some fountains and this and that place. And I said it reminded me a lot of Oxford. First thought. I'd already compared it to Oxford.
Forgive me, Aix. I'm trying.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Real Swing Dancing Tonight!
I've been spoiled with libraries lately. I don't think I will ever feel the same way about them after spending a term at Harris Manchester.
The library here at IAU certainly has it's charm. The IAU school is located in an old church that they created rooms in. The library is a funny shape and about a quarter the size of HMC's library. I really shouldn't compare the two. It's not right. It'd be a bit like comparing Frankie Manning to a dance instructor in Indiana. There are excellent dance instructors in Indiana. I know a lot of them and they're fantastic. But Frankie Manning had the age and wisdom that comes with just simply being Frankie Manning. His knowledge was unique and unmatched in his field.
I just feel a bit sad when I go in there because I miss the HMC library with an intensity I didn't know I could feel for a room fulla books.
I hope I can still appreciate UIndy's library when I get back.
I still think a bit like I'm traveling.
For example: my host mom wanted my laundry so she could do it and it's just weird. Someone else to do my laundry? I don't have to pay for it? And when deciding what's "clean" and "dirty" it's a little more like deciding what absolutely has to be washed that moment and what can go another week without getting rank.
And so. When traveling you have x ammount of clothes. You have x minus what you're wearing at the exact moment you will do laundry. So what can go into the wash at this point = x-w. (where w represents the clothes you're wearing). If you have to let your clothes air dry you have to be careful because sometimes it takes a full day, or a day and a half for them to dry. Towels and jeans take espeically long. So if you need to shower that day you have x-w-t = l. (where l represents laundry). Sometimes if t is dirty, but you cannot do l right away, then you must use w to dry off.
Anyway! The point is that there is a limited supply of x. So when my host mother asked for t1 (the t she gave me) to wash, I had to think: "If I give her t1, which she gave me at the beginning of the week, I won't have it for my shower. I have MY t (=t2), which is slightly less dirty, because I used it as a mat for my painting. I can use t2 for one day while t1 dries."
But this kind of math is only necessary when the supply of x is travel limited, not house limited. Lo! and behold, t3 appeared on my bed while I was eating breakfast!
And she helped me strip and make my bed. How weird is that? It was really weird.
I dropped my phone yesterday. Off a wall. It fell about 10 feet to the stone ground below. Every piece that can be taken apart came apart. I thought for sure this was the end of this terrible phone. I was wrong. It still works. But I don't have a key pad any more. That piece fell into a grate and could not be recovered. Now I have to use a pen to poke at the sensors. I have to count where the numbers are and texting a simple message will take me 10 to 15 minutes to complete.
I hate this phone but I must give it credit. It basically shattered and it still does my bidding. I can't wait to put it down for good when I get back to the states in, cringe, 31 days 7 hours 44 minutes. I'd invisioned throwing it agains a brick wall, driving over it with my car, dropping it from a 5th story window, putting it in the yard to get mowed over, or just plain taking a hammer to it. Now I might give it a proper burrial and just let it become one with the earth.
We'll see. It's kind of like a blackberry phone now, though, cuz I have to use a stylis. But it's not a blackberry. And it's only a little funny.
The library here at IAU certainly has it's charm. The IAU school is located in an old church that they created rooms in. The library is a funny shape and about a quarter the size of HMC's library. I really shouldn't compare the two. It's not right. It'd be a bit like comparing Frankie Manning to a dance instructor in Indiana. There are excellent dance instructors in Indiana. I know a lot of them and they're fantastic. But Frankie Manning had the age and wisdom that comes with just simply being Frankie Manning. His knowledge was unique and unmatched in his field.
I just feel a bit sad when I go in there because I miss the HMC library with an intensity I didn't know I could feel for a room fulla books.
I hope I can still appreciate UIndy's library when I get back.
I still think a bit like I'm traveling.
For example: my host mom wanted my laundry so she could do it and it's just weird. Someone else to do my laundry? I don't have to pay for it? And when deciding what's "clean" and "dirty" it's a little more like deciding what absolutely has to be washed that moment and what can go another week without getting rank.
And so. When traveling you have x ammount of clothes. You have x minus what you're wearing at the exact moment you will do laundry. So what can go into the wash at this point = x-w. (where w represents the clothes you're wearing). If you have to let your clothes air dry you have to be careful because sometimes it takes a full day, or a day and a half for them to dry. Towels and jeans take espeically long. So if you need to shower that day you have x-w-t = l. (where l represents laundry). Sometimes if t is dirty, but you cannot do l right away, then you must use w to dry off.
Anyway! The point is that there is a limited supply of x. So when my host mother asked for t1 (the t she gave me) to wash, I had to think: "If I give her t1, which she gave me at the beginning of the week, I won't have it for my shower. I have MY t (=t2), which is slightly less dirty, because I used it as a mat for my painting. I can use t2 for one day while t1 dries."
But this kind of math is only necessary when the supply of x is travel limited, not house limited. Lo! and behold, t3 appeared on my bed while I was eating breakfast!
And she helped me strip and make my bed. How weird is that? It was really weird.
I dropped my phone yesterday. Off a wall. It fell about 10 feet to the stone ground below. Every piece that can be taken apart came apart. I thought for sure this was the end of this terrible phone. I was wrong. It still works. But I don't have a key pad any more. That piece fell into a grate and could not be recovered. Now I have to use a pen to poke at the sensors. I have to count where the numbers are and texting a simple message will take me 10 to 15 minutes to complete.
I hate this phone but I must give it credit. It basically shattered and it still does my bidding. I can't wait to put it down for good when I get back to the states in, cringe, 31 days 7 hours 44 minutes. I'd invisioned throwing it agains a brick wall, driving over it with my car, dropping it from a 5th story window, putting it in the yard to get mowed over, or just plain taking a hammer to it. Now I might give it a proper burrial and just let it become one with the earth.
We'll see. It's kind of like a blackberry phone now, though, cuz I have to use a stylis. But it's not a blackberry. And it's only a little funny.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
I Have a lot of Homework.
Have I told you that it's painfully obvious that I haven't had a French class in over a year? It's not like riding a bike. Riding a bike is muscle memory. Skydiving is like riding a bike. Speaking French is like playing the violin. I spent years in my early childhood learning it and I haven't touched one since 7th grade and I can remember one section of one song. And it sounds terrible when I play it.
I mean, it's not that bad. But it's rough and rocky.
I'm not gonna let my posts fall off the face of the Earth, like then did when I was at HMC.
In the mornings my cellphone alarm goes off at 7:25. Then I hit snooze and it goes off again at 7:30. Then I turn it off. My watch alarm beeps at 7:33 and I roll over and open my laptop. It sits on my bed all night long, kind of like a stuffed animal, but my laptop really does communicate with me, unlike Pity Penguin, who just kind of sits there and sometimes falls off the bed.
So I check my email before I get out of bed and turn on some music and this morning I looked through all the photos I took at Oxford. There are surprisingly few.
I didn't take ANY inside any building. I barely have any photos of any of the places I frequented. My memory of that place is an expansive panorama, and the actual photos I have are itty bitty tiles here and there.
I can't let that happen here. But I'm sure it will.
So I'm slowly working my way into a friendship with these three musicians who are about my age. Yesterday I saw the bassist walking down the street carrying his bass and he stopped and put his bass down and gave me the cheek greeting and we chatted and he told me when they were playing next (tonight!) and that I should come. So I will. A set of French musician friends is just what I need.
And life is right where it should be.
I mean, it's not that bad. But it's rough and rocky.
I'm not gonna let my posts fall off the face of the Earth, like then did when I was at HMC.
In the mornings my cellphone alarm goes off at 7:25. Then I hit snooze and it goes off again at 7:30. Then I turn it off. My watch alarm beeps at 7:33 and I roll over and open my laptop. It sits on my bed all night long, kind of like a stuffed animal, but my laptop really does communicate with me, unlike Pity Penguin, who just kind of sits there and sometimes falls off the bed.
So I check my email before I get out of bed and turn on some music and this morning I looked through all the photos I took at Oxford. There are surprisingly few.
I didn't take ANY inside any building. I barely have any photos of any of the places I frequented. My memory of that place is an expansive panorama, and the actual photos I have are itty bitty tiles here and there.
I can't let that happen here. But I'm sure it will.
So I'm slowly working my way into a friendship with these three musicians who are about my age. Yesterday I saw the bassist walking down the street carrying his bass and he stopped and put his bass down and gave me the cheek greeting and we chatted and he told me when they were playing next (tonight!) and that I should come. So I will. A set of French musician friends is just what I need.
And life is right where it should be.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
I Have My Knitting Again!
I'm doing a new thing or two.
I found a huge canvas in my room already mounted and painted with a base coat. It's dark brown and it's been here for a while, I can tell. There are places where the paint's been scraped off from rubbing against this or that. My room is stark white and there's a large space of wall above my bed framed by two lights. I asked Veronique, my French mother, if I could mount it above my bed. She said I could even paint on it.
That was on Sunday. Yesterday I went to the art supply store and bought red, blue, yellow, white, and black paints, and 7 brushes. And I went to town on that canvas. For three hours. What came out was a giant tree.
I can't tell if I'm done or not. But I was so excited to tell my Veronique about it. In French, of course.
And today was my first class at 8:30 a.m. and maybe I've been a bit spoiled, but that's ridiculous early. I've not had a class before 9 a.m. at UIndy. God bless the History/Poli. Sci. department.
So it's a bit of a strange life what with a crookedly shaped oblong room that's naturally got more character than than any other room I've inhabited because it's had about six or seven hundred years to shift with the earth beneath it and be reshaped and remodeled and reflexed and repainted and redecorated and re-inhabited.
I just received a suitcase I sent to myself while in Austria. Have you ever sent yourself something from the past? Its like someone knew that you wouldn't forgotten about those things, but that they were just out of mind. And they wanted them to come back into your mind when the time was right. And the time was right today.
All I want to do while here is create. I've painted. I drew today. I bought a harmonica, too. If I cannot play the bass I'll learn a more portable instrument. So it's in C and I'm gonna spend from today until June 21st learning how to play it better than poorly so that I can hopefully find people to jam with at the festival de musique! It's an entire day, starting at 4 p.m. of musicians in the streets and it lasts all night.
I'm gonna go back to that shop and try to chat with everyone there, looking for people to play with. And people to speak French to. And to befriend.
Today I had a traditional French afternoon. After class a friend and I went to a cafe and drank coffee and ate sandwiches and sat there for two hours. Which is what you're supposed to do. And then I found some Django Reindhardt players and sat and listened and drew a street lamp. And then I went to the music store and should have just stayed and chatted chatted chatted but I just wanted to get home and play. And unpack my little life that arrived in a red suitcase.
And tonight a few of us are going to Le Skat. It's a jazzy kinda club and tonight they're playing rhythm and blues.
And I caught wind of a rumor that there was swing dancing somewhere in the city. I will find it. I will wear my swing dress. I will dance. I will show these French swing dancers how an American swing dances because, after all, they can have Django cuz we have Frankie Manning.
And my French class is hard :( But! I love speaking French and my French parents are a dream.
Today my French mom and I had breakfast together and it was so delightful.
I found a huge canvas in my room already mounted and painted with a base coat. It's dark brown and it's been here for a while, I can tell. There are places where the paint's been scraped off from rubbing against this or that. My room is stark white and there's a large space of wall above my bed framed by two lights. I asked Veronique, my French mother, if I could mount it above my bed. She said I could even paint on it.
That was on Sunday. Yesterday I went to the art supply store and bought red, blue, yellow, white, and black paints, and 7 brushes. And I went to town on that canvas. For three hours. What came out was a giant tree.
I can't tell if I'm done or not. But I was so excited to tell my Veronique about it. In French, of course.
And today was my first class at 8:30 a.m. and maybe I've been a bit spoiled, but that's ridiculous early. I've not had a class before 9 a.m. at UIndy. God bless the History/Poli. Sci. department.
So it's a bit of a strange life what with a crookedly shaped oblong room that's naturally got more character than than any other room I've inhabited because it's had about six or seven hundred years to shift with the earth beneath it and be reshaped and remodeled and reflexed and repainted and redecorated and re-inhabited.
I just received a suitcase I sent to myself while in Austria. Have you ever sent yourself something from the past? Its like someone knew that you wouldn't forgotten about those things, but that they were just out of mind. And they wanted them to come back into your mind when the time was right. And the time was right today.
All I want to do while here is create. I've painted. I drew today. I bought a harmonica, too. If I cannot play the bass I'll learn a more portable instrument. So it's in C and I'm gonna spend from today until June 21st learning how to play it better than poorly so that I can hopefully find people to jam with at the festival de musique! It's an entire day, starting at 4 p.m. of musicians in the streets and it lasts all night.
I'm gonna go back to that shop and try to chat with everyone there, looking for people to play with. And people to speak French to. And to befriend.
Today I had a traditional French afternoon. After class a friend and I went to a cafe and drank coffee and ate sandwiches and sat there for two hours. Which is what you're supposed to do. And then I found some Django Reindhardt players and sat and listened and drew a street lamp. And then I went to the music store and should have just stayed and chatted chatted chatted but I just wanted to get home and play. And unpack my little life that arrived in a red suitcase.
And tonight a few of us are going to Le Skat. It's a jazzy kinda club and tonight they're playing rhythm and blues.
And I caught wind of a rumor that there was swing dancing somewhere in the city. I will find it. I will wear my swing dress. I will dance. I will show these French swing dancers how an American swing dances because, after all, they can have Django cuz we have Frankie Manning.
And my French class is hard :( But! I love speaking French and my French parents are a dream.
Today my French mom and I had breakfast together and it was so delightful.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
It's 11:26 p.m. here in Aix-en-Provence.
I'm currently in my incredibly comfortable room. I need to indulge in some more Aix details.
And I feel a little cheesy because whenever I listen to Eva Cassidy singing "Fields of Gold" I just break up inside. It always reminds me of Oxford.
The streets are narrow and mostly one way. There are fruit and vegetable markets every morning. There are tons of fountains, all different with different important histories. There are sidewalk cafes All over the place. Even more than Paris, I'm sure. I see old men sitting outside with serious moustaches and eating chunks of bread with cheese and a bottle of wine within arms reach.
And I've got orientation tomorrow at 9 a.m. so I'm actually going to cut this post super short. But the next one will be worth it, I promise!
I'm currently in my incredibly comfortable room. I need to indulge in some more Aix details.
And I feel a little cheesy because whenever I listen to Eva Cassidy singing "Fields of Gold" I just break up inside. It always reminds me of Oxford.
The streets are narrow and mostly one way. There are fruit and vegetable markets every morning. There are tons of fountains, all different with different important histories. There are sidewalk cafes All over the place. Even more than Paris, I'm sure. I see old men sitting outside with serious moustaches and eating chunks of bread with cheese and a bottle of wine within arms reach.
And I've got orientation tomorrow at 9 a.m. so I'm actually going to cut this post super short. But the next one will be worth it, I promise!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Tiny Bit.
So Paris. Barcelona. Aix.
I'm in Aix-en-Provence.
This is the last stretch. 44 days till I fly home.
But this is home until then. I've got some French parents and an American sister. Those are a few things I've never had before.
Quick bulleted bits about Aix and my new life here:
- I love Aix-en-Provence.
- It's a bit like Oxford in the sense that it's Old and Beautiful.
- There are tons of fountains.
- And there are cobble stones.
- My mother is beautiful and friendly, much like my real mother. And she's got dark hair, too.
- The doors are majestic.
- My home is from the middle ages.
- I get the 4th floor room with my own bathroom.
- There are 41 spiraled stair steps to the top floor, which is my bedroom.
- And I've got a full sized bed.
- There is art throughout the whole house.
- We have a cat named Millie.
- My window looks out over the street and much like at Oxford I cannot help but gaze out of it every 45 seconds. I watch all the people walk by and they just don't know.
- I was nervous but not anymore.
- I'm living in a house older than my country.
- I have a gabled window.
- I'm happy to be settled for the next 6 weeks.
I'm so tired. PS. Salsa dancing in Barcelona is incredible.
I'm in Aix-en-Provence.
This is the last stretch. 44 days till I fly home.
But this is home until then. I've got some French parents and an American sister. Those are a few things I've never had before.
Quick bulleted bits about Aix and my new life here:
- I love Aix-en-Provence.
- It's a bit like Oxford in the sense that it's Old and Beautiful.
- There are tons of fountains.
- And there are cobble stones.
- My mother is beautiful and friendly, much like my real mother. And she's got dark hair, too.
- The doors are majestic.
- My home is from the middle ages.
- I get the 4th floor room with my own bathroom.
- There are 41 spiraled stair steps to the top floor, which is my bedroom.
- And I've got a full sized bed.
- There is art throughout the whole house.
- We have a cat named Millie.
- My window looks out over the street and much like at Oxford I cannot help but gaze out of it every 45 seconds. I watch all the people walk by and they just don't know.
- I was nervous but not anymore.
- I'm living in a house older than my country.
- I have a gabled window.
- I'm happy to be settled for the next 6 weeks.
I'm so tired. PS. Salsa dancing in Barcelona is incredible.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Listen to the Song "Gypsy Melodies" by The Snake, The Cross, The Crown
June 10
What can I even begin to say? You have no idea. I have no idea. All of Santorini and Paris have no idea, either. Did we find Atlantis? Yeah, it’s that big dark spot just off of that beach somewhere that direction, Lori said as we stood on the edge of a cliff watching the sun set. Mystery solved. Everyone chill. Let’s go to the beach.
Santorini is…one of the best things about traveling. It was one of the most fun and most memorable parts of the trip so far. It’s definitely in the top 25, at least.
It’s been a while since Santorini Island, it seems. So how bout some highlights? The hostel was so cheap and so awesome. It was seven euros a night. It was 2 minutes from the beach. It was full of Australians and Canadians and some Americans. There was a 24-hour bakery just down the street where nothing was over 2 euros. There was a beach about 2 minutes from the hostel. There was beach service at a lot of the restaurants. The beach was less than a two minute walk from the hostel.
On the first day we got to the beach and Lydia looked at a mountain and said “I’m gonna climb that mountain.” And I said. “See that ship way out there? I’m gonna swim to that ship.” We laughed and said, “I’m gonna sleep on this beach for 4 days.” That was a little closer to the truth. But Lydia really did climb that mountain. I think I showered once in Greece. It was kinda useless to anyway because the water was salty. It did wonders for my hair, though. I didn’t wash it at all while I was there; I just dipped it in the sea every day and it was awesome. On the last day one of the waiters on the beach told me my hair was perfect. I laughed and he said, “Don’t you think so?” I just thought it was funny because I hadn’t washed it in a week. He might have just been trying to sell me a beer. I took the compliment and left the beer.
We rented 4 wheelers and rode all over the island. We ate lots of pastries and bread and (tatzsiki) I can’t spell it but it’s that garlic-y cucumber cream sauce.
::side note:: I love watching people wake up on trains because we all do the same thing. We fall asleep. We wake up. Look out the window. Look around at who’s still on the train. Look at the watch. Calculate where we’re supposed to be at what time. Calculate how long we’ve got till our stop. Go back to sleep in a slightly different position. By the way, I’m on a train from Paris to Barcelona. I’ll get two days to make Brent Lederle proud. Then I’m back to France. 48 days.
We met some crazy characters in Greece. Unfortunate Max from New Jersey who appreciates punctuality and fell off a bicycle and had to get stitches. Santorini Dave from Australia who hung out with us every day. “Geographical South” Brandy from Texas who studies in Mississippi and hates it because it’s the stereotypical “anthropological south.” Normal Sarah and Kathleen from New York who study in Paris. Jerk-Face Alex living in Greece who thinks girls shouldn’t play soccer. Bottle Opener Martin Powers Jameson from Ireland who always had a bottle of Jameson with him but he loves Powers Irish whiskey more so Powers and Jameson are not part of his name and he could open any bottle top with any object, including another bottle top.
Our batting average for making ferries ended up being a 500. If it were a test we would have gotten a 50/100. That’s failing. But when life is a song, not a test, it’s better that way because it lends itself to more interesting lyrics.
Speaking of Life is a Song. After Santorini Island we had an afternoon in Pareaus, Greece. We got there at 7:30 am and we went to a café and drank frappes and analyzed song lyrics for about 2 hours. Ask us if we went to the Acropolis. Go ahead. Did we go to the Acropolis? Yeah, twice. Once on Santorini Island and got delicious 2-euro gyros and once in Pareaus and got frappes! We didn’t even want to go see the real thing. Everything in Greece is named after the Acropolis.
So…what’s really on my mind is this train and feeling a little bit nauseous and sitting by myself in a dining car and only speaking to strangers in a strange language because Lydia and Lori just left and I just left and we’re all leaving Paris behind. I love goodbyes. I love saying goodbye at train stations and bus stops and airports and all those transitional places. I love it when the people you’re saying goodbye to will give you a hug and then look you in the face and then once you get on the train or they get off the train they stand there and keep looking at you and waiving a little bit and maybe make a little funny face and after the doors close they find the window that’s open and call out your name to catch your attention because they’re not done saying goodbye and after the train starts to slowly wind its gears into motion, they walk in time with it and run even if it’s crowded and they’ve got heavy packs on and say things like “I love you, Sarah K!”
I think saying goodbye at a train station is way better than saying it at an airport. You get more time to say goodbye and there’s no weird post-goodbye but pre-departure period. And the first time I rode a train, other than the SouthShore, was summer after my junior year in high school and Josh came to see me off and he gave me a hug before I got on the train and after I was on, the train slowly wound its gears into motion and he ran along side and called my name and jumped up and hit the window and I pulled ahead of him and thought that I wish I could spit off the bridge one more time with him.
I’ll have to write about the rest of Greece and Paris a little later. I just can’t do it now.
What can I even begin to say? You have no idea. I have no idea. All of Santorini and Paris have no idea, either. Did we find Atlantis? Yeah, it’s that big dark spot just off of that beach somewhere that direction, Lori said as we stood on the edge of a cliff watching the sun set. Mystery solved. Everyone chill. Let’s go to the beach.
Santorini is…one of the best things about traveling. It was one of the most fun and most memorable parts of the trip so far. It’s definitely in the top 25, at least.
It’s been a while since Santorini Island, it seems. So how bout some highlights? The hostel was so cheap and so awesome. It was seven euros a night. It was 2 minutes from the beach. It was full of Australians and Canadians and some Americans. There was a 24-hour bakery just down the street where nothing was over 2 euros. There was a beach about 2 minutes from the hostel. There was beach service at a lot of the restaurants. The beach was less than a two minute walk from the hostel.
On the first day we got to the beach and Lydia looked at a mountain and said “I’m gonna climb that mountain.” And I said. “See that ship way out there? I’m gonna swim to that ship.” We laughed and said, “I’m gonna sleep on this beach for 4 days.” That was a little closer to the truth. But Lydia really did climb that mountain. I think I showered once in Greece. It was kinda useless to anyway because the water was salty. It did wonders for my hair, though. I didn’t wash it at all while I was there; I just dipped it in the sea every day and it was awesome. On the last day one of the waiters on the beach told me my hair was perfect. I laughed and he said, “Don’t you think so?” I just thought it was funny because I hadn’t washed it in a week. He might have just been trying to sell me a beer. I took the compliment and left the beer.
We rented 4 wheelers and rode all over the island. We ate lots of pastries and bread and (tatzsiki) I can’t spell it but it’s that garlic-y cucumber cream sauce.
::side note:: I love watching people wake up on trains because we all do the same thing. We fall asleep. We wake up. Look out the window. Look around at who’s still on the train. Look at the watch. Calculate where we’re supposed to be at what time. Calculate how long we’ve got till our stop. Go back to sleep in a slightly different position. By the way, I’m on a train from Paris to Barcelona. I’ll get two days to make Brent Lederle proud. Then I’m back to France. 48 days.
We met some crazy characters in Greece. Unfortunate Max from New Jersey who appreciates punctuality and fell off a bicycle and had to get stitches. Santorini Dave from Australia who hung out with us every day. “Geographical South” Brandy from Texas who studies in Mississippi and hates it because it’s the stereotypical “anthropological south.” Normal Sarah and Kathleen from New York who study in Paris. Jerk-Face Alex living in Greece who thinks girls shouldn’t play soccer. Bottle Opener Martin Powers Jameson from Ireland who always had a bottle of Jameson with him but he loves Powers Irish whiskey more so Powers and Jameson are not part of his name and he could open any bottle top with any object, including another bottle top.
Our batting average for making ferries ended up being a 500. If it were a test we would have gotten a 50/100. That’s failing. But when life is a song, not a test, it’s better that way because it lends itself to more interesting lyrics.
Speaking of Life is a Song. After Santorini Island we had an afternoon in Pareaus, Greece. We got there at 7:30 am and we went to a café and drank frappes and analyzed song lyrics for about 2 hours. Ask us if we went to the Acropolis. Go ahead. Did we go to the Acropolis? Yeah, twice. Once on Santorini Island and got delicious 2-euro gyros and once in Pareaus and got frappes! We didn’t even want to go see the real thing. Everything in Greece is named after the Acropolis.
So…what’s really on my mind is this train and feeling a little bit nauseous and sitting by myself in a dining car and only speaking to strangers in a strange language because Lydia and Lori just left and I just left and we’re all leaving Paris behind. I love goodbyes. I love saying goodbye at train stations and bus stops and airports and all those transitional places. I love it when the people you’re saying goodbye to will give you a hug and then look you in the face and then once you get on the train or they get off the train they stand there and keep looking at you and waiving a little bit and maybe make a little funny face and after the doors close they find the window that’s open and call out your name to catch your attention because they’re not done saying goodbye and after the train starts to slowly wind its gears into motion, they walk in time with it and run even if it’s crowded and they’ve got heavy packs on and say things like “I love you, Sarah K!”
I think saying goodbye at a train station is way better than saying it at an airport. You get more time to say goodbye and there’s no weird post-goodbye but pre-departure period. And the first time I rode a train, other than the SouthShore, was summer after my junior year in high school and Josh came to see me off and he gave me a hug before I got on the train and after I was on, the train slowly wound its gears into motion and he ran along side and called my name and jumped up and hit the window and I pulled ahead of him and thought that I wish I could spit off the bridge one more time with him.
I’ll have to write about the rest of Greece and Paris a little later. I just can’t do it now.
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